I’m in a mood today, and I’m going to stay in a mood today. Today, I feel like I have the emotions of a 13 year old girl, and trust me, I remember what that feels like. I was DRAMATIC and I can sense that coming. Maybe I should just get off work and go to bed for the night, Otherwise, I might do/say something I regret. Actually, I think I need to make a phone call Monday, go to the doc and get this figured out. I can’t handle these lows anymore.
Alright… here it is… im sick of always saying im going to do this and im going to do that and im going to lose all this weight and have a 6 pack and look like this or that. and then there is the times where ive almost started crying in the store because clothes dont fit me the way they should, or fit me like they fit my sister. yes we have completely different body types but still… I NEED TO GET THIS DONE. i need to get it done for me. not for anyone else. for my health, for my life, for my career. and it wont hurt my relationship either, with nick being a full force exercise-aholic, i need to start being just as dedicated as he is. i know that sounds dumb, to start working out for him, but the other part of that is, thats another time we can hang out, thats something i can strive for, to be where hes at, people see us as the “power couple” dont make fun.. its something i want… and in order for him to be happy with me and my body, i have to LOVE IT. and right now i dont. i refuse to even get in a swim suit now and summer is in like a month.. so.. to jump start it.. liquid diet starting monday… HERE I COME!!